Life is nothing but CROSSROADS!

Life is nothing but Crossroads. Every step one takes will definitely changes one's life. I'm currently in a position where I have to decide on which step to take. Dance is all it matters to me. I do honestly want to make it as my career. But I still have my Makeup Course to complete. It was last two weeks since I've returned from Bangkok. Being there for those 5 days had really given me a whole lot to think about my dance career. Honestly, how many years more can I dance and compete anymore. Im like 18 this year. Well the longest I suppose is by the age of 30, I should retire. After speaking to my coach I had give it much thought. I really do want to take it to the next level. I do not want to just keeping competing in small national championships. I really want to be a world class competitor. I really wanna move to bangkok to train under a coach there but Im like currently stuck between completing my course which is 2 years (Makeup course which is 2 yearrs!!!). Wad should I do...!!!???? I dont have much time no more!!!

Im in love with this photo...

Cuz its me!

My first time indulging myself in Modelling...

LOL! I cant believe i actualli modelled for the photoshoot... Well i think I did a pretty decent job.

Im realli in love witht he fashion industry where there are no bounds at all. Recently Ive been wondering why do most people in Malaysia tend to think that modelling is pageantry. Im sick and tired of hearing omg that model is so gud. But when I open up the photos, it was like (You call that good). Honestly why cant they think something more out of the box. Seriously why is there no High Fashion in Malaysia. Why is everyone drifting towards the comercial market. Well let's keep finger crossed to see wad happens in the near future.

Birthday....! Photography session...

Well my birthday as always is juz a normal day. Nothing much. Thanks to everyone who wished me. Yesterday was a blast... Had a photoshoot with Sharon.. Great model... The makeup was phenomenal on her. The smokey eyes juz transforemed her into a diff person... WOW! Pics will be up soon on my makeup blog...

The first group practice after a long long time

Yesterday was the first night I attended a group practice for competitors in my dance studio after a long long time. Finally I'm back out there competing again. It has almost been half a year since I last competed. I can' wait till 2 weeks later when Im gonna board the plane to Bangkok. Oh Yea Baby! But too bad It wasnt my best performance yesterday night. I was pretty much completely worn out. I did not had my meals the whole entire day yesterday, breakfast, lunch! But everything seems to be good at the end of it. Later on after dat, I drove myself home. Wow! First time driving home alone in the middle of the night. I was pretty much freaked out the entire time since I had a car accident a few days ago.

Nothing much

Well today's just like any normal day. But the problem is, I didn't practice dis whole entire week. I have a feeling dat we're gonna get screwed by my coach pretty soon dis weekend. Oh God. I desperately need to work on my stamina, energy and my legs. They're like, WEAK!!!! And I do mean it. Every Thursday is the same outcome. The whole entire Multi Purpose Hall is completely used up. Well next week better reschedule ourselves. Now I'm gonna juz brush my teeth and have a goodnight's sleep cause I really have to get up early and ride a train home.

Up's And Down's

Well, life seems to always appear to be up and down like a roller coaster ride. Not knowing what will happen next. Well today obviously is a down one. Not knowing why, I don't seem to have any mood to dance or do anything. Dance practice seemed to be pretty social. O My God! Dis definitely must not happen in the long run. Competition's next month in Bangkok. Definitely have to pull myself together... Time to wake up Nick!!! No more lazing around!!! Time is definitely running out.

Anyways, I tried to push myself to dance my best but I think it didn't went well. Definitely have to work extra hard tomorrow. NO MORE SLACKING!!!

Well dinner was kinda simple tonight. I don't feel like eating anything. Don't have the mood to eat. But no matter what, I still have to eat something so I ate a coselaw at 'One Station' and also somesort of Ice Blended Beverage. I'm still here, typing away on this blog. I think I'm kinda obsessed with blogging lately, Well maybe this is the only way to actually express my feelings.

For now I'm gonna go home, take a bubble bath and clean myself up thoroughly cause I definitely stink right now and head to bed. Well who knows maybe tomorrow's gonna be a good day!!!!

*The Simple Life is not a simple life.
[Mason Cooley (b. 1927), U.S. aphorist. City Aphorisms, Third Selection, New York (1986).]

You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me

The song by Cher (You Havent Seen The Last Of Me) is an amazing song. Filled wit emotions and the meaning of this song is juz so meaningful. I could feel the pain and the distress she was handling with. Two thumbs up for this song!

Feeling broken

Barely holding on

But there's just something so strong

Somewhere inside me

And I am down but I'll get up again

Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

You haven't seen the last of me

They can say that

I won't stay around

But I'm gonna stand my ground

You're not gonna stop me

You don't know me

You don't know who I am

Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

There will be no fade out

This is not the end

I'm down now

But i'll be standing tall again

Times are hard but

I was built tough

I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

I am far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

No no

I'm not going nowhere

I'm staying right here

Oh no

You won't see me begging

I'm not taking my bow

Can't stop me

It's not the end

You haven't seen the last of me

Oh no

You haven't seen the last of me

You haven't seen the last of me

Lonely Do I Feel

Another passing month has just flew by. I'm feeling quite lonely lately and abit emotional recently. Why must it be me? Why must I feel this way. I feel tremendously in pain and I feel dat I should just open up my wings and fly free from hiding my true self. I really do need people to understand my feelings at times. Im really tired of hiding who I am. People do not quite seem to understand other's feelings. I feel so lonely at times thinking when will I be able to find the other perfect half of mine. Or is it such dat i will never be able to find myself someone special. I juz feel tired hiding all the time and faking it all.!!! Urgh!!! Boy!!! This do sound emoish!!! But for now Im juz gonna stff myself with a bunch of SILLY LOVE SONGS!!!

I AM BEAUTIFUL,

NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY,

CUZ WORDS CAN'T BRING ME DOWN,

I AM BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY SINGLE WAY,

NO WORDS CANT BRING ME DOWN,

Single on Valentines day

People have always heard me say... "oh it's allright... who actually cares about having a relationship... I especially am, do not care less about having a relationship.. it's like wasting my time"

I try to hide dat i like being single and dat i am strong... But I dunno wahy im tired of masking myself... The stronger i am, the weaker i feel... I feel so lonely at times and how i wish dat there was someone to lean on... to share my affections, thoughts, and feelings with... But i don't think dat it would ever happen...

Valentines around the corner, or TOMORROW actually...

I think it's gonna be another single valentines day for me agin.

Im gonna juz watch videos and romance movies... i cry my ass off.. haha

A change of Environment.

Just arrived in Kuala Lumpur the City dat neva Sleeps yesterday night at bout 10pm. But too bad I need to sleep. Came here dis week to practice practice practice. Im currently here now in UCSI's library. Better stay to myself cuz im actually an illegal immigrant around here. LOLZ! Hope dis is a different change of environment for me. Im kinda enjoying dis University. Looking at a wide variety of ppl strolling in and out from campus. I gotta say dat this ccampus is HUGE! It'll take bout two days for me to actualli finish adventuring this whole campus. It's obviously weird. Im here in this campus but im not actually taking any courses. Instead im here in the library enjoying myself spending my time FBing. It's pretty big in the library itself... 3 floors man.

Grandpa R.I.P

Death is just the beginning. Grandpa please do rest in peace. We will love you although you may no longer be with us anymore. Although we may shed tears, but we know dat death is the stage where everyone needs to go through. May god and his heavenly angels guide you towards a world where there is no pain and happiness. You have served well in this lifetime bringing everyone single one of us up taching us right from wrong. We WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. Life will no longer be the same for all of us without you being around but we will continue living strong.


Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

Happy New Year

A new year has come,
And changes will be done,
From now on it will be present,
Yesterday was all just a dream,
A dream which I will remember for life,
Oh Faithful Friends,
I will remember you for life,
The things we all experienced together,
From dis day on it everything will be a dream
A dream which i will remember for life

May dis 2011 bring about all the happiness to all my friends...