The first group practice after a long long time

Yesterday was the first night I attended a group practice for competitors in my dance studio after a long long time. Finally I'm back out there competing again. It has almost been half a year since I last competed. I can' wait till 2 weeks later when Im gonna board the plane to Bangkok. Oh Yea Baby! But too bad It wasnt my best performance yesterday night. I was pretty much completely worn out. I did not had my meals the whole entire day yesterday, breakfast, lunch! But everything seems to be good at the end of it. Later on after dat, I drove myself home. Wow! First time driving home alone in the middle of the night. I was pretty much freaked out the entire time since I had a car accident a few days ago.

Nothing much

Well today's just like any normal day. But the problem is, I didn't practice dis whole entire week. I have a feeling dat we're gonna get screwed by my coach pretty soon dis weekend. Oh God. I desperately need to work on my stamina, energy and my legs. They're like, WEAK!!!! And I do mean it. Every Thursday is the same outcome. The whole entire Multi Purpose Hall is completely used up. Well next week better reschedule ourselves. Now I'm gonna juz brush my teeth and have a goodnight's sleep cause I really have to get up early and ride a train home.

Up's And Down's

Well, life seems to always appear to be up and down like a roller coaster ride. Not knowing what will happen next. Well today obviously is a down one. Not knowing why, I don't seem to have any mood to dance or do anything. Dance practice seemed to be pretty social. O My God! Dis definitely must not happen in the long run. Competition's next month in Bangkok. Definitely have to pull myself together... Time to wake up Nick!!! No more lazing around!!! Time is definitely running out.

Anyways, I tried to push myself to dance my best but I think it didn't went well. Definitely have to work extra hard tomorrow. NO MORE SLACKING!!!

Well dinner was kinda simple tonight. I don't feel like eating anything. Don't have the mood to eat. But no matter what, I still have to eat something so I ate a coselaw at 'One Station' and also somesort of Ice Blended Beverage. I'm still here, typing away on this blog. I think I'm kinda obsessed with blogging lately, Well maybe this is the only way to actually express my feelings.

For now I'm gonna go home, take a bubble bath and clean myself up thoroughly cause I definitely stink right now and head to bed. Well who knows maybe tomorrow's gonna be a good day!!!!

*The Simple Life is not a simple life.
[Mason Cooley (b. 1927), U.S. aphorist. City Aphorisms, Third Selection, New York (1986).]

You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me

The song by Cher (You Havent Seen The Last Of Me) is an amazing song. Filled wit emotions and the meaning of this song is juz so meaningful. I could feel the pain and the distress she was handling with. Two thumbs up for this song!

Feeling broken

Barely holding on

But there's just something so strong

Somewhere inside me

And I am down but I'll get up again

Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

You haven't seen the last of me

They can say that

I won't stay around

But I'm gonna stand my ground

You're not gonna stop me

You don't know me

You don't know who I am

Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

There will be no fade out

This is not the end

I'm down now

But i'll be standing tall again

Times are hard but

I was built tough

I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

I am far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

No no

I'm not going nowhere

I'm staying right here

Oh no

You won't see me begging

I'm not taking my bow

Can't stop me

It's not the end

You haven't seen the last of me

Oh no

You haven't seen the last of me

You haven't seen the last of me

Lonely Do I Feel

Another passing month has just flew by. I'm feeling quite lonely lately and abit emotional recently. Why must it be me? Why must I feel this way. I feel tremendously in pain and I feel dat I should just open up my wings and fly free from hiding my true self. I really do need people to understand my feelings at times. Im really tired of hiding who I am. People do not quite seem to understand other's feelings. I feel so lonely at times thinking when will I be able to find the other perfect half of mine. Or is it such dat i will never be able to find myself someone special. I juz feel tired hiding all the time and faking it all.!!! Urgh!!! Boy!!! This do sound emoish!!! But for now Im juz gonna stff myself with a bunch of SILLY LOVE SONGS!!!

I AM BEAUTIFUL,

NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY,

CUZ WORDS CAN'T BRING ME DOWN,

I AM BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY SINGLE WAY,

NO WORDS CANT BRING ME DOWN,